Have you ever stopped once to think about why you are doing what you are doing? I did just so in the past week.
Last week I had an insightful conversation with a good friend. We were talking about how our past experiences had shaped how we interact with others. My past experiences had made me predisposed towards not trusting other people, and I was worried that it would affect my chances of making friends in the future.
While I have friends from my various different hobbies, university life often means that I can hardly afford to meet up with them. Furthermore as I do not stay in the hostel anymore, I have to commute by myself every morning and evening.
I enjoy solitary moments with myself, but sometimes I wish there was someone to keep me company. Those days back in primary school were far more enjoyable than today.
I felt conflicted until my friend showed me a quote.
If you are depressed, you are living in the past.
If you are anxious, you are living in the future.
If you are at peace, you are living in the moment.
It suddenly made sense to me. My mind was either stuck in the past or the future most of the time, which was why I was often depressed and anxious. For those moments which I felt inner peace or happiness, I really was living in the moment.
To lead a more fulfilling life, I realized that I should be predisposing myself to think positively by creating positive narratives for myself. Doing so would allow me to begin each day with much gratitude and happiness, and create more good vibes.
After all, everything we do is for the sake of these fleeting feelings of happiness - these extremely short periods of happiness which exist momentarily and dissipate quickly, crystallized as fond memories of the past.