When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
I like this quote. It shows the idea that grit and determination are also important factors which fuel one's determination to succeed or to survive.
As an urban dweller, I am born into a world of endless competition which I am forced to fight to survive. The earliest I recall about academic rankings was back when I was in elementary school. I used to constantly think about topping the academic rankings and similar ideas like that, and it would lead to a constant sense of anxiety and never ending mental suffering.
I don't do that today, because it is pointless to beat yourself up over something you do not have control over. With 7 billion people in this world, it is very unlikely that I am the best in the world in something. Many measurable traits can also be expressed using the normal distribution function, and thus statistically it would be unlikely for me to be at the ends anyway.
My priority now is to be the best version of myself. Yes, I am imperfect, I will always be imperfect. But if I am able to mindfully put in effort to better myself, I am sure that in the future I will look back at my past and see how far I have come.
The way to do so if by building small, useful and repetitive habits. Right now I have two of these habits. The first is to push code or knowledge daily on GitHub, on either a private or public repository. The second is to post on this blog weekly.
I am proud to say that I have continuously practised these two habits for about three months already, and I can feel myself changing. I can code faster now, and I can ideate and type out my ideas more quickly.
The upcoming weeks will be tougher for me but I will hang on and prevail.